- Thu May 27, 2010 3:07 pm
#164400
how come when i screw up and have a 'human' moment, God still answers my prayers?
i am having a difficulty in my life right now (actually this problem has been a part of my life for 20 years, the same problem comes and goes) and in the heat of the moment last night i said something that was not so nice. i tried to 'recover' and do my best to 'right' things, but the damage was done. my life, like so many others, is very difficult at times. it can be so frustrating. i get so angry at myself because i feel like i fail miserably against temptation, anger and the evil things in this world. i wish i was stronger at times.
in my pain of self pity (why is my life so difficult?) and sadness (why can't you keep your mouth shut!?), i prayed for God to help me. my prayers were not answered then.i felt God had abandoned me.
this morning i met up with two people, one a friend, one a stranger, who without their knowledge, answered my prayers with their words.i felt so consoled, so loved. i KNOW God used them as an instrument to speak his words.
i was overwhelmed with feelings, knowing he never abandons me, just waits for the right moment to help me.
my question is this: why, when i feel i have totally messed things up, does He continue to help me?
it just blows me away.
i am having a difficulty in my life right now (actually this problem has been a part of my life for 20 years, the same problem comes and goes) and in the heat of the moment last night i said something that was not so nice. i tried to 'recover' and do my best to 'right' things, but the damage was done. my life, like so many others, is very difficult at times. it can be so frustrating. i get so angry at myself because i feel like i fail miserably against temptation, anger and the evil things in this world. i wish i was stronger at times.
in my pain of self pity (why is my life so difficult?) and sadness (why can't you keep your mouth shut!?), i prayed for God to help me. my prayers were not answered then.i felt God had abandoned me.
this morning i met up with two people, one a friend, one a stranger, who without their knowledge, answered my prayers with their words.i felt so consoled, so loved. i KNOW God used them as an instrument to speak his words.
i was overwhelmed with feelings, knowing he never abandons me, just waits for the right moment to help me.
my question is this: why, when i feel i have totally messed things up, does He continue to help me?
it just blows me away.
karen d
massachusetts usa
massachusetts usa